A better understanding of myself

I have recently had sort of an "ah-ha!" moment about possible reasons for my current state of anxiety about this baby and probably at least one reason for my depression all these years since I had Becka. I still have feelings and ideas moving around in my head, but I have been thinking about blogging them to get them out and (hopefully) more coherent. I'm not quite ready yet, but don't be surprised if there is a big crazy novel in the near future. :)